Sunday, August 26, 2012

badass beauty

Jovian Mandagie has launched his Raya 2012 collection under the name Aviraya just before Raya this year. Man, the collection is to die for and of course, they are off the racks within seconds. By off-the-rack, I do mean, they are literally zapped up in and First Lady Boutique at Jalan Tar, the only 2 places where you can get this collection. 

Best thing is they do come in bigger sizes for full-figured ladies like yours truly. 

Since I can't be relying on online display and description for my Raya attire, I headed to First Lady Boutique in Jalan Tar and was shocked to see that most of Jovian's collection was not fit for trying, i.e torn. I managed to get 1 to try on but it didn't fit me well. Loved the colours though. Well, probably it wasn't my rezeki yet. 

A beauty right?
Young designer with badass ideas.

It's ok, I'll get you someday.

Sunday, August 12, 2012

raya purchases

Went for Raya shopping today after receiving call from Mak this morning, which means basically I went out for errands on her to-do and to-buy lists. 

She wanted me to buy some Raya biscuits for our relatives in our kampung and some for ourselves, so I bought a few containers of assorted biscuits. I aimed for yummy ones like Nestum-based, chocolate-based and also some colourful ones (yeah, as if I am the one who's gonna eat them ya).  Decided to grab more colourful ones because I feel like this Raya is gonna be a little merrier than normal ('cos I'm backkkk, hahaha).  

The traffic was not as bad as I thought it would be, but finding a car park was beyond average patience. People were swarming about the whole shopping complex, leaving little room to walk through. Thank God my to-buy lists doesn't involve home appliances/decoration items and Raya baju, otherwise I think Mister won't be speaking to me for the rest of the day. 

So what I got for the day were the biscuits, mine and Mak's brooches (mur-mur jer), Papa's baju Melayu studs, ALSO some chiffon scarves and inner for myself (they were so beautiful, I hope this will be something additional to motivate me to berhijab), a vintage bracelet and a kebaya for yours truly.  Finally got myself a decent kebaya, was actually looking for a kebaya top online for weeks now, but got this kebaya set at a good price! Rezeki they say :)

Told my mum I got myself a kebaya set, she answered with " Why, they DO sell kebaya in YOUR elephant size?" 
Gosh, killjoy betul mak I ni ye, ppffttt  

Satisfied with my purchases today, yeah!
However, still not done yet with things to buy before going home this Friday, yippee!
Need to buy some baju for my brother(s) and spend some time with the Mister tomorrow because I won't be seeing him for 2 weekends. 
He better behaves! 

Til then, have a good last weekend before Syawal knocks on our doors, have a blessed and peaceful week.


Tuesday, August 7, 2012

i want

I want to travel the world, see the sunsets in every country. 

I want to have breakfast, lunch and dinner on the same day in 3 different parts of the globe.

I want to pamper my body all day. 

I want to cuddle up.

I want to watch movie at home, with my favourite popcorn and my favourite person. 

I want to have Italian food, with cheerful Italian music in the background.

I want to walk through a beautiful garden, wearing pastel.  

I want to touch the dolphins in the sea.

I want to swim, and snorkel and dive. 

Actually all I really want right now is talk to you all night, listening to craps, and your struggle to speak Malay. Your ramble on work, colleagues. Our dreams and how to achieve them. Oh, I miss those days. 

Urggh, I hate this time difference in our jobs, really. Feel like you're getting further. 

Wednesday, August 1, 2012

searching for you

A couple of months ago, while eating dinner with my boss, I asked him something which I would normally ask my married friends. My boss is an ang moh, or mat salleh, as they are famously labelled by the locals, and it is widely known that most of ang mohs are open-minded and vocal about anything. Which was why I decided to ask him anyway. in

"G***, how did you know your wife is the person you wanted to marry?"

His answer was simple. 

"Well, with her, it felt right, and I can't imagine living my life without her."

It was indeed straight to the point, and sums up the answer right away. 

Some answers that I got from my married friends are,

"I guess it's when the flow of your relationship is smooth, no obstacles, no nothing"
" He makes me a better person."
"He is my best friend."
"You just know, you know"

Well, how do you just know? I mean, marriage is a big thing, and for you to finally choose the person that you're gonna spend the rest of your life with is a pretty big deal. How do you make that decision? Or was it just a leap of faith?

Been searching for some ideas on the Net, and these are what I found. 

"The first time we met (while I was in the throes of one of those other infatuations), I wasn't all that interested in him. When I went to see him at Thanksgiving, however, something in my eyesight changed. Around him, I felt like I was home."

Agreed totally. I mean, that, for me, the ultimate sign! He/she has got to feel right, as if you belong together, like how you belong to your family. Like home. 

Now, on to point #2

"I think of it like this: in the past, even in relationships in which I thought of myself as happy, the thought of being with the same person in 20 years could make me a bit queasy with anxiety. I realized M_____ was right for me when the thought of being with her in 20 years filled me with contentment."

Keyword here, contentment. You should feel contented when you're with the one, no forcing, no pushing, just feeling calm and contented. There, I said contentment twice in one sentence. 

Point #3

"I've gone through life as a very happy person, but when I spend time with Mr. 26.2 I'm even happier, calmer and more relaxed. I can't say that I "knew" right away, but I knew that we were better together than apart. 

After years of complex relationships, being with the right man has been incredibly simple. It feels like the search is over, but it never feels like settling."

Awww.. isn't that sweet? Somewhat I felt a little de ja vu.

Okay, next point. 

When I found someone with whom I could totally be myself, without any reservations whatsoever, that's when I knew I'd found the one. 

Here's my example: I am cranky in the morning. And when you read that, you will think, 'Okay, sure, she's cranky, so is everyone' but I need to explain to you that this is my own very special brand of cranky. Every other guy I have ever been with has taken this as a personal condemnation against them, has stormed out of the house, has given me lecture after lecture, taken things said without coffee to be personal insults upon their very honor.

Mr. M. will just kiss me on the head and say, "It's so hard for you in the morning" and walk away. We usually laugh about it later. (He is not mr. wonderful in the morning either, and we generally just try to not speak at all.)

I have never been more *me* than I am with him. All of it, good and bad. Definitely bad. ESPECIALLY bad. It is easy to be your best self with someone you love but it is hard as heck to show the ripped seams.

Given these points, it already seem pretty simple. But actually, how will we ever know? What if we've reached the contentment stage, or the homey stage, does it really guarantee that we have actually found the one? The question still lingers. I guess I'm at that crossroad now and only time will reveal the truth. 

Taking some cues from my parents, whom I adore so much, they are not one of those couple who openly show their affection towards each other, but I can feel that they're really in love by the way they watch out for each other, how they are scared of losing each other and such. Sure, some things might tick them off, probably a trait, a habit, but they compromise and instead of letting that become an issue in their relationship, they actually embrace their flaws. 

I'm pretty much in a mushy mood now because I'm listening to Barbra Streisand's 'I've Finally Found Someone'. So romantic like that =)

Anyway, I know that nothing a prayer can't solve. He hears everything, every wish, every moan, every problem, and He guides you endlessly, even when you've at times not been a loyal servant of His. 

And my search for the definite answer continues.