mak's birthday

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Read this article earlier today regarding the love between the Prophet Muhammad and his wife, Khadija, and I absolutely love the above paragraph especially the part where the writer said that 'the better will be the person Allah chooses to complement you.'  

:')

But anyways, I'm not gonna talk about relationships (again) yada yada. I'm going to talk about my mum!

It's her birthday today! Technically, another half an hour for her day to end but it's hokay. Confession, I wasn't the type of daughter who's close to her mum since young. So no make up lessons, no fashion tips, no relationship advice, no massive cooking lessons etc. I guess it's because I live in a household of mostly boys, so it took a while for me to digest those things. Late bloomer I guess :) But I do know that I was a crybaby (confession #2, still am), super duper sensitive I tell you. Probably because I'm a Pisces (?), heh. 

When I left home for my tertiary studies in Penang, I notice that Mak changed a bit. I mean, she'll talk about womanly things with me, hugged me more often, especially when I was about to leave the family at the airport after my semester breaks. Absence make the hearts fonder, they say? Heh. It took quite a while to get used to, actually. I never confide in my mum on my relationship ups and downs, not until these few years. I don't know why. Nowadays, we call each other on the phone nearly every day :)

It's magical the bond that daughters have with their moms, really. Which is why I wish that my first newborn will be a girl. But of course, I take whatever rezeki as they come la. Hee. 

So Mak, HAPPY 50++ BIRTHDAY!

Love you lots. 

twentyfour seven

with every difficulty there is ease

Dear brothers,

Trying time it is now. But just hold on. Each of us is promised of His sustenance, so as long as we work for it. I'm working on it, everybody's working on it. I know it's easy to despair in times like this but know that He would not make us go through this if He knows that we can't do it. 

"On no soul doth Allah place a burden greater than it can bear" 

(Al-Baqarah 2:286)

I'd be lying if I were to say that I never feel like giving up. I do, of course I do. I do have those moments. And it doesn't help when you've (still) got peer pressure around you to act or live the way they want you live. I hope you get what I mean. I know it must be harder on you around your friends too, sometimes (or most of the time). But you and I, we can't give up. You just can't surrender to things that are volatile.

The things that you want, you know I wish so many times that you didn't have to ask for them. So many times, I wish they come easy. But I guess, when you have them easily, you won't learn the value of the important things. For example, your health, you see how Papa is healthier now compared to when he was working his bums off in the office? Value of time, remember that time when we had the cafe and no one had time for each other? Everyday was spent manning the cafe, from the wee hours of the morning right up to midnight. I remember what baby brother used to tell me. "Na, I want continue college in XXX so that I can be close to Mak and Papa". The cafe was in the vicinity of the college. I mean how sad is that? Not to have those comfort at home. Those and a lot of other things.

 Something great is gonna come out of all this mess, trust me. Have faith in Him. These things, they make you learn and appreciate. Imagine having all the money in the world, but your family disrespect you. Or having all that, but during Raya you don't get to see your Dad because he needs to spend the day with his business partners. These are true stories and I don't want all that.

We didn't celebrate Raya together last year. This Raya, I hope that'll change.  

"Verily, with every difficulty there is ease."
surah Al-Sharh

stellar as it is

I think I'm gonna stick to being single, for now. I kinda like the way it is at the moment.

:)

*winks*

ramadhan updates

Ah, my favorite day of the week again.

I swear nowadays the days go by so fast, the next thing u know, it's just less than 2 weeks before Syawal come knocking on our doors. I have not prepared anything for Raya yet. Mak keeps on calling me reminding me what not to buy. I guess this Raya will be a little bit different. Definitely not as feisty as the previous years but I'm sure it will be more blessed, than ever.

My Ramadhan so far has been great, alhamdulillah. I spent some days breaking fast and terawikh with my cousin, nephews and niece, some days with my close friends, some days alone at home. But I think the best would have to be iftar and terawikh in Masjid Putra with my bestfriend. 

"Ramadhan is not about eating, it is about feeding"

This, retweeted by Wardina, and I couldn't agree more. It's all about feeding the needy and feeding your soul. Just my two cents worth, sometimes I think this hoohaa of feeding the less fortunate during Ramadhan is kind of over-rated. 'Cos that's about the only time when you see their welfare being well taken care of. What happens to them during the rest of the year? Zakat alone is not enough. I don't have the figures to prove my point but just go visit an orphanage and take their word for it.

Speaking of Wardina, I was watching Nona the other day and they were talking about families celebrating Ramadhan. I respect how Wardina educate hers. What she does is that she instills the concept of Ramadhan being the month with the bigger celebration instead of Syawal. Most of us treat Ramadhan otherwise, right? So on the first day of Ramadhan itself before breaking fast, Wardina has put up balloons and other decorative items in her house as if they're going to celebrate a birthday. I think this is pretty clever. So gonna do the same for my kids.

Alright, I better get some sleep now. Been sleep-deprived for days now and tomorrow I sort of need to accompany someone's mum for Raya shopping. Anything to cure my missing my mum. *sobs* Patience Amy, merely 2 weeks more to the land of my favorite people!

Good night, peeps!

"Faith wears out in the heart of any one of you just as clothes wear out, so ask Allaah to renew the faith in your hearts."

aneez maisarah - you will be dearly missed

Who, when a calamity befalls them, (by showing perseverance), say: 

'Verily we belong to Allah, and certainly unto Him shall we return'.

Al-Baqarah Verse 156

I lost a niece today. She's only 12. At the moment, we don't know what would have caused her passing but according to her mum, she passed out in front of a clinic, turned blue and her mum rushed her to the hospital where she was pronounced dead. Sad news is, Monday was her first time fasting. 

The last time I met her was last month. Her family came to KL to send her brother off for college. We met for dinner in Jalan TAR and as always, she will be super manja with me because she seldom sees me. Kak Weina this, Kak Weina that. She would insist to hold my hand and walk with me. Being an only daughter (youngest somemore), her family pampered her a lot since she was a baby and she would get whatever she wanted. She could be mischievous at times (to the point which may irritate some people) but she never mean any harm. 

Her passing is a shock to everyone. I feel sorry especially towards her mother because they were so very close. And her mum is an amazing woman, I tell you. A very patient mother. I pray that they both will go to Jannah. 

I will surely miss her antics and her constant plea to get me to accompany her to swim.

December 2012

After 2 days of persuasion, I finally gave in to teman her swim. Huhu.

Aneez sayang, you will be dearly missed. 

Al-fatihah.

"Didiklah hati, pujuklah hati supaya celik melihat kasih sayang Tuhan"