super spontan

Have been sleeping in my guest room for 2 days now and to tell u the truth, I kinda like it here :P 

Well, my folks are here with me and they will be here until end of this week. So giving Sir and Maam a space of their own ;)

I've got no particular subject to 'talk' about tonight, just felt like blogging 'cos I have not blogged spontaneously in awhile. 

Today was my cousin, Adzlan's wedding. Didn't take many photos because apparently someone forgot to put the battery into the camera after charging it for the whole night! -_-"

I'll blog about the wedding in another entry though. 

I'm feeling light-headed and so sleepy now. Time to doze off I suppose. 

Catch ya'll in another entry! Night!

of annual dinner and posse mates

Yes, it's that time of the year for almost every company to have their yearly event to celebrate their success stories, and reward the achievement of their employees

THE ANNUAL DINNER

We had ours last 3 weeks at the Shangri-La, KL. The theme for the night was Uniform Night and oh boy, it was just amazing to see some of us dressed up in all sorts of uniformed bodies. We even had a Scottish bagpiper on board and he WON the best-dressed! (well, he put on a Gangnam show to gain audience votes) - but he sure deserved it!

Here are some shots of the night. I didn't get to capture a lot of photos because I urm, have forgotten to(?) and with all the commotion and mingling, that leaves my poor camera unused in my bag. And instead I've depended on my BB camera for convenience.

Our 'boarding pass' for the night. My unlucky number was 1222.

Pose before leaving the house

The Chef, schoolgirl and pilot lady

One for myself.

Me and Navina

Take 2

Me and Sara

Take 2 (with Sara smilling.. heeee)

If we're not bankers, we would be firefighter and pilot.. like seriously. 

 Part of my CA UK team

Photo credit : Liza Boey

Well, this annual dinner WASN'T my highlight of the night. 

My highlight of the night was....

YES! 

The reunion of the posse mates!

I see these guys like, once in a few months, so when I know that I will be in Ampang area that night, apa lagi, I buzzed them, planned for a meet up and voila, we got together for the movie 'Pitch Perfect' and then for a yum cha session at Pelita Nasi Kandar. 

A night of loads of gossiping, updates and of course, motivational talks ;)

One of the best night outs I've had in a LONG, LONGGG time. 

Reached my house at about 4++ in the morning and tucked into bed at 5 a.m.

Been a while since I've done that. 

In the name of good, clean fun! :D

uncertainties

It has been more or less 2 weeks now since I last updated anything on my blog. Trust me, I've been itching to pen down my thoughts because I have a lot of  hot news (!), photos, events and some dwelling as well, I suppose.

And right now, I'm kind of in a down mood :'(

Sometimes I feel like it's easier being single and just go through life without having your heart crushed and broken into pieces every time. It's easier to just enjoy life with your girlfriends and family. But thing is, when you're single, you would wish that you have a partner to share your happiness and woes with you. So ironic.

Right now, I thought I have the happiness that I am searching for. But in all honesty, I feel that I am not complete. How to find such happiness that can complete you? How? I mean, I still have these doubts and whatnots, and I even have this feeling that this is again another one of Allah's test. You know right, His tests will come in terms of all sorts of downfall or pleasure, so I was thinking maybe, just maybe, He is just lending one of His creations to me, so I would get to feel happy, even for a short while. I guess when your intention is right, you will be blessed. Well, my intention is right and I have gone to You for some answers. But yet I feel like I might lose him.

Sometimes I feel maybe this is just my mindset being all negative and whatever. That what it really is, is that I'm afraid to finally be happy. I'm not sure. Yes, I'm happy and I love to be this happy with him. But is he happy? Yes, he makes me happy, but do I make him happy? Because sometimes I get this vibe that he has a lot in his mind and he's just being with me because I make him feel comfortable. But I don't want him to be with me because of that. I want him to be with me because he is in love with me.

Are you in love with me, sayang? I don't want to keep on guessing because I don't have a definite answer.

If you are, what is holding you back?

I'm trying to instill this belief that if we don't work out in the end, at least he has made me happy. Maybe indeed Allah is just lending him to me to make me appreciate more. God knows.

I get tired of trying, every time. Once, my girlfriend pointed out to me that I have a positive outlook towards love because I can get myself up after every heartbreak that I've gone through. Girlfriend, it is hard! It is hard sustaining the relationship, to have it fail in the end, to register the reality in your head, to nurse your heart, to erase the memories and promises, to face his friends and family, to let go, to be at peace (redha) with what's written, to get yourself up, to smile and not be grouchy, to find things to do to replace your once him-filled life, to focus on other things, to muster enough courage to talk about it to your friends, yada-yada. IT IS NOT EASY.

So again, how do you find such happiness that can complete you? Tell me.

white and peach

Ready for a day out with Mister. 

To kind of celebrate our anniversary. 

Kind of, celebrating >.<

Peach top by Nichii

Jacket by Cultivation, Isetan

I really love the jacket because it fits my frame perfectly and you can wear it for both casual and formal wear. It gives a slimming effect as well and white portrays elegance. 

Love the whole assemble!